I almost fell into that hole in your life

Dear                ,
Yes, not having you around, even for these few days has been unbearable.
Yes, I really want you to come back.
No, I won't ever be able to return your affections.
And today I figured out why.
 (I apologize in advance for how blunt this is.)
You aren't my type, not even in the least.
I hate to say it but you're not.
You're spoiled, you're extremely rude to your mom sometimes, and you have no tolerance for physical pain.
You kind of freak out when things don't go your way. You're always super down on yourself, and for no reason at all. You always have to be heard, and you keep trying to cut in until you are. You always think you're right. You are utterly stubborn. You don't like children. ...
That's really all I got.
Regardless of all this, you are my best friend, and I'm positive you could find five times this amount in me. I don't pretend to be perfect.
I can deal with all of this in a best friend. Not in any other way.
x + y = 13
AND 
x + y = 6
OR
x + y = 9

There's an INFINITE amount of solutions.
But only one of them will be the correct answer in the end.
Dude, you will always hold a special place in my heart.  
Just not the one you want.
Get over it.
I'm really not that great.