i don't say the things that i say out of self-pity.

i don't express myself to gain favor.

i don't care about your empty compliments.

i don't want to hear that you do care about me,

when all of your actions say otherwise.

no one understands. 

i carry around so much guilt.

guilt that i don't know how to handle.

frustration with myself.

i have never been good enough, 

even where i had the potential to be.

i always give up on myself.

because it's easier to fail from the get-go,

than to try real hard and not succeed.

failure is comfortable.

achievement is not.

hurting people is easy.

being hurt is not.