I would like to think that males are not a big part of my life.  I would like to think that I don't fall in love easily. Most of all I would like to think that I don't need that kind of love. 

But here's the facts.

I'm the only girl in my family, so males will naturally always be a big part of my life. My personality is such that falling in love is just... The easiest thing in the world. Growing up in a family where romance is inevident, I guess it only makes sense that it is something I need. 

Three unavoidable truths that create inevitable problems. 

I find myself taking the chance to hang out with a boy, even if there's nothing between us, rather than my closest friends, and it's not fair of me. But I do it over and over. 

I get my hopes up and bank all my feelings on a person, but you know, it's like, highschool and shiz, so things never work out. And then, I get over it as easy as I got into it. 

I don't want to get married. I just need the security in knowing that I have someone who won't leave for a while. Someone who cares about me. Yes, I have my friends, and they are honestly the greatest friends in the whole world. But I can't make out with my friends. (yes, I'm that shallow sometimes, and no, Chandler don't get any ideas) I can't cuddle with them. Okay actually, I can, but you know what I mean. There's just that void in my heart that needs to be filled.

I'm too dramatic.