You say my name like there could be an us.

Never in my life... has accepting the truth torn into my being this much.

Never. Ever.

I saw it coming.. but now it's hit me.. and there's no denying it. 

My heart, was obliterated in two words.. 'Not anymore'..

Mostly, because I know I could have prevented this.. with just one word. 

no.

But guess what?.. I didn't say no.

And now my chest feels like it's empty...

I ruined my chance for happiness. Not him.

Nothing else has ever made more sense to me: the idea of he and I together.

Like the pieces of a puzzle. A perfect equation, with no areas left to question. 

and I blew it.

Now I have to spend my life searching for someone who is like him.. but they never will be him.. 

There's nothing I can do about it.

My heart is broken.

And it's my effing fault.