they say your head can be a prison

Valentine's.
A day to dread, or adore.
We either look forward to it, or pretend it doesn't exist.

I like to think that I would fall in with the Valentine's critics...
I pretend I do..
But in actuality.. the thing is...

I want nothing more than to have a boyfriend,, or something, on Valentine's Day.
Just once.
I want to anticipate the special surprise, and to be able to go out of my way to make it special for someone else.
I want to know that someone will tell me they love me, and mean it.
I want to look forward to this day because I know I have someone to share it with..

I put on the show.. I let people think I'm emotionally screwed up.. [well I am]..

Truth be told,
I'm actually a hopeless romantic.
I just need a boy to show me they care about me as much as I care about them..
No hidden motivations,, No hormone driven attempts.

Even with all the suffering my heart has been through.. Even with all the numbness.
I'd be willing to go through it ten times over.
I am willing.

[[music speaks for the soul]]

Before I fall too fast
Kiss me quick
But make it last
So i can see how badly this will hurt me
When you say good bye

Keep it sweet
Keep it slow
Let the future pass
And don't let go
But tonight i could fall to soon under this beautiful moonlight

But you're so hypnotizing
You got me laughing while i sing
You got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
And your love is where im falling
But please don't catch me

See this heart
Wont settle down
Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you'll do
my stomach screams just when I look at you

Run far away
So I can breathe
Even though you're far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes to high
Cuz every hello ends with a goodbye

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where im falling
But please don't catch me

So now you see
Why I'm scared
I cant open up my heart without a care
But here i go
Its what i feel
and for the first time in my life i know its real

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've get me smiling in my sleep
And i can see this unraveling
And your love is where im falling
So please don't catch me

And if this is love
Please don't break me
I'm giving up
So just catch me