Is it truly possible to be completely afraid; mortified of something as simple as
being happy?
because I am..
My life has this nasty habit of continuing in a vicious cycle: Good --> Bad --> Really good --> REALLY bad --> little bit of good :) --> LOTS OF BAD annd so on.
It never fails
I promise you I am not a cynic, or a pessimist. I'm a realist. With the ability to remove myself from a situation. It's helpful, I guess, when the bad times come around, cause then I know I have something to look forward to... the problem,, comes with the knowledge that after the good.. comes the bad.....
So I have developed an irrational phobia of being too happy
That being said, I come to my point.
What do you do when the perfect opportunity for complete utter ecstasy, is staring you in the face..
and you're too scared to take it?...
Do what you know will make you MOST happy. "good choices aren't always easy, but they do make life easier...in the long run at least".
ReplyDeletehon were not here to be miserable it's the exact opposite...your life has been ...among the worst i've ever seen but your so much stronger because of it....dont let it hold you back anymore
ReplyDeleteit's not like i want to be miserable. you know that. annd i really am trying not to. you know that too.
ReplyDeletein fact. you know it all too :)